Illness Or The New Norm?

Since I began my journey into the working world two months ago a lot has changed. I have been tackling being a mother, step-mother, wife, and admissions coordinator for a widely growing home health company. I have been working as a barn hand for an adorable local place on Saturday’s. And my family and I have been attending church regularly at a new place. We have been busy to say the least. 

What many people don’t know about me is my struggle with the every day life; depression, anxiety, basically the works. About a year ago at the very end of my pregnancy with my son, I began to struggle with this more and more. I was having intense family issues and I just kept getting more and more depressed. About 3 months after having our angel, I had to abruptly stop breastfeeding because of the stress and weight on my shoulders which led me to needing medication. It was completely devastating for me. 

The reason I’m telling you this is because I’m not ashamed. I know I’m not alone. There are so many people who feel the same way I do and that number is growing daily. My question is why? What is making so many people face being the victim of depression/anxiety? For me, I think it was the personal issues coupled with the stress of a fast paced world. For others, maybe it’s the demands of a family or the stress of multiple deadlines. The world is spinning so fast I don’t know how anyone can keep up. 

I have come to find that taking one day at a time is not the right way for me. Everyone is different, I know that. I feel like having a routine as well as planning out my days/weeks is what keeps me on track. If anyone else has thoughts on how to keep depression, stress, or anxiety to a minimum, please feel free to comment! 

How to Survive the First Day At A New Job

Today I started my new career, the journey I will be taking indefinitely. I have been a stay-at-home mom for the past two years and I decided it was time to take the plunge back into the adult world. It was tough, I’m not going to lie. I could hardly sleep last night because I was so worried about what my days would now consist of. I thought about all the flexibility I would be losing and all the time with my kids. It was a little heartbreaking.

After I caught myself getting tangled up in thoughts of things I would be losing, I realized the only way to survive the first day of work was to change my outlook and do my best to shift my thoughts to the things I would be gaining. It didn’t occur to me until late the night before the big day that I was actually doing what was best for myself and my family. It was inspiring for me to fall asleep thinking about the things I could now afford for my family that we couldn’t before (after that dreaded daycare bill, eek!) and the way I would be a professional adult and be purposeful in my work.

After shifting my worried thoughts to good, I was able to fall asleep quickly and get some rest. I woke up this morning feeling refreshed and willing to take on the day, even as nervous as I was. I inspired myself instead of searching for reassurance somewhere else. It turned out to be an amazing first day and I killed it!